Pain and Releif

Sorry my love (song 18) I’m sorry my love I can’t be what you need me to be I know it’s been tough and rough in your life  I want to extend a hand but it’s too much to bear When I see you I have nothing but hope for you. But today is just too late. Tomorrow is too far and yesterday has come and gone. There is little I can do to stop your pain. I see you walking daily in the rain. How long have you been walking for? How many steps have you taken? Your heart is in no condition to take another step. But I see you still stepping. I see you still walking alone in the crowed of a thousand faces  When was the last time you sat and took a break? When was the last time you’ve been on a date? I’m sorry my love. My hands are full my heart is closed.  There’s just too much pain to wipe away, those tears I can’t see you cry on the inside. Too many sleepless nights I can’t bare to see  My  hands  are  full  I’m sorry my love My love, my love  I’m sorry my ...

I really like Korean Dramas. I usually speed through the openings of any series. But for these, I tend to listen. Every time, is like someone fell in love for the first time all over again. I used to watch my grandma watch “Young and the Restless.” now I have my version of that. And it's kinda cool. But I don't want to imagine anymore. I want to live and produce music. Among other things.  I can’t claim credit for the translation. I wonder how accurate it is? Any how English and Korean. “Almost Moment.”: Version 1.2 If you want me Just reach out and grab me You almost had me Just one look and I was gone Just a faded shadow in a river of sorrow  To bad we could not borrow time Even if we could  How could we pay it back  Nana seconds  Seconds and minutes  Away Love walking out the door Here we both go again Alone again Trying to pick up the pieces of what could have been Seen the world in an afterthought. A pretty little girl with her mother’s eyes  Then...

Jesus I know that you make the darkness tremble. But what can you do when I’m trembling? When I’m falling? When there is no solid ground to turn to. What am I supposed to do when there is only fear in me? When there is only an end I can’t deny? It’s not my fault I’m sitting in this place. It’s not by my choice that I’m sitting in chains once again. A new problem again. How many times do I need to meet you here again? I know they push me to this place again. I know you gave me a dream and a purpose and it’s robbed from me again.  How many times do I have to start over again? Where is the Lords voice in the distorted silence. I can’t even hear myself think.  Repetitive words in prayer. Kept from thinking to myself unless it’s written for someone else’s benefit. Where is my mental freedom? Where is my ability to free think and remember? Oh Lord how I need you. For the first time. I recognize you are far from me. When did I become so unholy? I remember lounging at your feet. I rem...

To whom it may concern, My blog is to explain some of the things that are going on in my life. Some of the things I have control over. Some things I do not.  It is also to express a number of thoughts I don't usually share or express. Lost a lot from not publishing my work. Working to undo some of that. I will work to be as frank as possible. I will use the knowledge I already have. Any learnings or additions I will share too.  The rest is just good old, I did my homework and self expression.  Great and Lowly, Rayshon Lamar Mason