Pain and Releif

Rap 33 “I’m in R77 MXM” Mixing me A Mason - how you mixing me. You a Mason too! Now I see military out here. Me too. Small problem big shoes. Jcole want it too.  I have no more forgiveness, it’s about time to set the stage and handle my business Jcole want an act I been plotting scenes sense the terminator. I got hit. Didn’t even need to say I’ll be back. It was implied.  I seen you rap on stage and say F everybody that just started listening. But why did I need to listen when I wrote most of your lyrics. I wrote about virginity and wanting to and hopes I’d go home with her.  Come to find out she was just in the girls locker room with a system trump card. Hoping not to get pregnant.  I remember the lines. He always been a baby killer. Talking about Drake exposing the fakes. The beef eater that got no teeth. Sucking on every wiki lik Now my brain got drains and his team of women kind sweet and soft. Now I see how they get off. If I didn’t take a picture you wouldn’t b...

Song/(Rap) 50 I’m afraid, Matrimony To the beat of Matrimony (WE REALY GOT A ROLE. We really got a role! I been trying to take mine from the start. I never tried to leave you. Just couldn’t keep the mind to follow you. Didn’t need a hood id be your covering. Holy and other though. Baby don’t worry I got plans for you. WE REALLY GOT A ROLE. We really got a role. Breaking Willy Though. I’m the living weirdo “that’s weird” it was this guy never met the man.) You think that time is up But I’m feeling that this relationship strong getting started  Been looking for a woman like you I know you kind of dark But I knew from the start  A different kind of woman I’m sorry for my foolish ethics  But I knew from the start  I been making plans for you  All I needed was you to love me as I was Not love me as you can get it Your ignoring I had to move on Start a new life And I had to forget it But such a strong interaction  You were my woman when I met you  Didn’...

Rap 31: Erratic Behavior? “really Cedric! Really!” ~ Think like a man. If coming in and sitting down doing the work is erratic behavior. Then I suppose a “passported black man” who’s professionally traveled the world to work is erratic too? Up by 6am and out of the office by 10pm is erratic. Lunch time at the same time every day is erratic. Coffee Sundays is just as Erratic. I suppose I’m an addict for strict timelines and productivity is my addiction. Coming in doing the meetings, professionally dressed, practicing the material, and taking the training, clean, and intolerant to disrespectful behavior is an issue. It’s not religious it’s just good manners. I don’t say a word. I make a note and comment, “is this regular behavior. I’m over trying to change it if it’s just something to be accepted? I made a note to you. So what you gonna do?” Until I read this is not normal and now I’m obligated to do something about it. I don’t want to be liable for something I didn’t condone or don’t ha...

Rap 29 Time line  finished I find I told too many about my timeline.  And that became my downfall.  Never share what time you on. Else, someone decides to make a game out of being your time keeper. Crooked score people that run your clock down. Ensure you sit around with a frown. They say it’s depression but it’s just a mesmerizing sound that hurts. Controlling every inch of a moment.  Most people get mad and stone it. I’m just a stone unhinged. Uninteresting to the naked eye. I got a private eye and I see all. And all I see is a bunch of non-committal individuals trying to stroke egos in public. All I wanted was a private life.  Found the perfect woman for me. But she told me some other woman running around with my last name. She already got fame. What she needs with my last name.  I’m no lion to be tamed. I’m already submitted to the one that help me maintain. I got peace in my life. Chaos in my environment and I’m still lounging around.  I don’t wan...

I am not aggressive.  I am logical I didn’t screw my own people.  I was sold into slavery.  I left because I thought proximity would end the slavery.  Come to find out I was just remote.  I was always trying to come back and pay my dues.  But I just kept being shaken out of the money tree.  Using my funds to live instead of build.  And all that I did build just ended up being someone else’s money tree. They remotely logged in and just followed behind me. Scary thought. Privacy and Security alluded me. I have residual anger. Hurt head. Softer back.  Energy leaking out of me. It’s a pointed sell. It was supposed to be a pull. Not a draw.  The system is flawed. But the house got good structure.  I’m pleading my case.  My whole history erased.  I’m on good behavior. Not let out for good behavior. But out for observable good behavior. Patterned path for all the children of wrath. Why you all on my life raft. Didn’t know this wa...